Food Log:
B: 2 slices french toast w/ syrup
L: ham & cheese sandwich, 1 slice Kashi pizza leftover
D: 1/2 char-hut pulled pork dinner w/ 2 plantains, black beans over rice (Erik was home today. Can you tell???) ugh...
S: popcorn w/ m&ms

Pts: 40 (egads!!!)

I think today will be my official cheat day...

Food Log:
B: ww egg mcmuffin
L: ham & cheese sandwich
D: 3 slices "healthy" Kashi pizza
S: 2 cookies

Pts: 35

Wt: 153.8

Food Log:
B: ww egg mcmuffin
S: 3 ritz crackers, laughing cow lite
L: grilled chz w/ ham, 1/2 c chkn noodle soup, 7 doritos
D: ww chkn pot pie (1 c)
S: 3 chocolate chip cookies...bad me made them tonight under the guise of needing to do it for my ongoing cookbook project.

Pts: 34 pts

I really need to cut down my points...ugh...still not there.

I didn't weigh myself this a.m. I think I'll wait til Monday since it's been so depressing lately.

(This was for Jan 29th)
Food Log:
B: 2 cinnamon rolls, coffee
L: 2 mcd's cheeseburgers, 4 ff's
S: fiber one granola bar
D: ww chicken pot pie/shepherd's
S: choc pudding


Pts: 36
Wt: 155 lbs (probably from what I ate the day before...badness)

I know I should be logging what I ate even when it's bad but this is just soooo depressing...

(This was from Jan 28)
Food Log:
B: egg mcmuffin- ww
S: 2 blueberry muffins
L: shepher'ds pie leftover
D: hot dog and 1 slice wheat bread
S: cherry cheesecake pudding (tasted pretty good!)
S: popcorn w/ m&ms

Pts: 36

Not good...

Was 154 in the am...

So....after two weeks of hiatus...the grand total is....( weigh in )

Food Journal: (planned)
B: Egg sandwich ww style
S: fiber one bar
L: ham & cheese sandwich
D: Grilled chicken, broc, potato
S: pudding

I've been on vacay with the fam for the past several days and am just about to go again for another week. This is most def. one of my biggest challenges--trying to stay on track and eat healthy when I'm visiting with family or friends. We go out to eat and then I'm usually screwed. It's usually so much easier to resist the bad stuff when I avoid restaurants...ugh...

Anyway. I intend to eat healhy today. Here's what's on the menu:
B: Egg McMuffin WW style
S: fiber one bar
L: ham & cheese sandwich
D: ground turkey hamburger helper
S: chcolate pudding w/ splenda

( And a yummy chili cheeseburger recipe )

Please remind me not to weigh myself when I know I've been bad for several days. Ugh...

Food Journal:
B: crunchy cereal-- hated it but only had 5 min before leaving to drop R at school.
S: fiber one bar
L: 2 steak soft tacos, 1 chkn soft taco
S: very small portion of leftover ww chicken pot pie
D: Chicken parm w/ lowfat cheese and 1/2 angel hair noodles

Pts: 27

I'm not sure what my weight was this a.m. as I forgot to weigh myself. I think I'm doing better though. Yesterday I was back at 152.4 so that was good news. Slowly but surely...

( Peach Cobbler WW Recipe )
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Ummm...I haven't been doing so well after my recent loss...I don't know why I sabotage myself like this. It's like things aren't exciting enough and I just have to dip down to that low again.

The past couple of days haven't been so good with Erik home either. Not that it's his fault, but I do tend to eat worse when he's around because I give in and eat stuff that he eats just to make things easier. Very bad habit. I should just keep doing what I'm doing. He also tempts me to eat out more because I want to enjoy our "family" time more...ugh....So many excuses and so little time.

Needless to say- I'm back on the wagon again...

Food Journal:
B: egg mcmuffin ww style
S: 
L:
D: 
S:

Pts:

Wt: 154...ugh....

( HG Fake Fried Green Bean Recipe )

 Food Journal:
B: pumpkin pancake HG style
L: chicken salad sandwich w/ fat free mayo & slice lowfat mozarella (1 slice bread)
S: 1/2 fiber one bar
D: 1 chicken enchilada leftover (lowfat cheese  recipe)

Pts: 25

I weighed myself this a.m. and it was a tad disappointing...I guess there were some remnants from July 4th bbq indulgences...I probably should avoid weighing the day after a bad spell so I don't depress myself too much...ah well. Hopefully the scale will be my friend again very soon.

 Food Log:
B: slimfast shake
L: bk whopper jr & 4 onion rings (bad--I know...It was a small burger though and no cheese! )
S: lemon cake ww, small glass milk 2%
D: 1 leftover chicken enchilada

Water: 1 1/2


Pts: 31


Bad veggie/fruit day. Onion rings count though-right? That's a veggie? And there was a tomato and some lettuce on the burger!!!! 

NSV
I have an NSV to report though. I went to Target yesterday and bought a size 11 pair of shorts. Lately I've been fitting into 12/14's so I thought I might buy a size down to see if it would give me a little inspiration. I tried them on when I got home just to see if they fit. And? They did!!! A tad tight, but doable! Sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Food Journal:
B: egg mcmuffin
L: steak soft taco
S: slimfast shake
D: chicken enchilada 

Pts: 28


I'm starting to get excited about the 50's!!! I'm getting sooo close. I was in the 50's when I got pregnant with Rachel almost 4 years ago...wow..has it really been that long since I was in the 150s????  I think I weighed about 155 or so when I first got pregnant with her in 2004. 

Recipe of sorts-
I made the chicken enchiladas tonight and they turned out sooo tasty! Browned the chicken in a pan an sauteed some chopped onions for the last couple mins. Then I removed the chicken and shredded with a fork (very important!!!). Put chkn back in pan with onions and cooked for another min along with some chili powder, salt, and pepper. Put it on the back burner and turned it off and then added 1 1/2 c lowfat cheddar shredded cheese and 1/2 cup mozarell lowfat shredded cheese. 

Preheated oven to 375 and sprayed 13 x 9 pan with Pam. In a smaller saute pan, I poured a few tbsp's worth red enchilada sauce (large can) and heated on low/med to warm flour tortillas one at a time and coat with sauce. Filled each tortilla w/ chkn,onion, & cheese mix and placed seam side down in pan. Poured remaining enchilada sauce over top along with 1/2 c cheese. Bake for 20 min. Mmm mm mmm...

Food Journal:
B: oatmeal w/ cinn & vanilla soy milk
L: 2 bites chz pizza, mango, cucumber slices, ham & chz sandwich w/ lowfat everything
D: 4 bites steak, 1 sm. chicken breast grilled, homemade mac & cheese, 1 sm ear corn
S: slimfast shake

Pts: 31

Weight this a.m. was 163.6!!!!!! Woot!!!!!!!

I think breaking past 164 really inspired me to be good at the bday party today. I only ate a couple of bites of Rachel's leftover cheese pizza plus some fresh veggies and fruit from the buffet. I bypassed the cake altogether. Woot! I think what really helped was that I ate a lowfat cheese and ham sandwich on a wheat bun before I left for the party. I also downed a slimfast shake when I got home afterwards. I think it's a good idea to fill up on something healthy before I leave for one of these parties where I know I will be tempted. I'm a lot less likely to eat bad stuff when I'm not really all that hungry.  We also went over to a friend's house for dinner tonight and although they were having steaks, I had brought some chicken breasts so that I could mostly fill up on that too ;-) 

Food Journal:
B: egg mcmuffin ww style (6)
L: 2 bites of cheese burger, 1 bite of hot dog, 5 slices watermelon,  grapes, 4 fried hors orderves (sp?) --guessing but maybe 10 pts?
S: rice pudding
D: arby's reg. roast beef (7)

Pts: 25

Today we went to one of Rachel's friend's bday pool parties. They had burgers & and hotdogs and they didn't look to be fat free by any stretch of the imagination. Way too juicy looking for that! I am soooo proud of myself though. There was a super yummy looking home-made potato salad (one of my all time loves) that was offered to me TWICE by friends...I didn't do it!!! I also did not eat the bday cake although everyone was raving about it. It was vanilla so actually easier for me to forgo. I'm a chocolate girl myself...But gah!!!!!!! So many temptations all around and I think I escaped so well to do as I did. I was so beat by being at the pool all day with both kids and no Erik to help that by the time I got home there was no way in hell I was making any kind of dinner. Erik saw a coupon in the mail from Arby's that advertised 4 reg. roast beefs for $5...so he ate 3 and I had 1! I was so hungry from not eating much at lunch that I was kind of surprised when I didn't feel super hungry after only wolfing one down. I rock. Who rocks? I do! I do!!!!!

Another kid's bday pool party tomorrow. Wish me luck...

Food Journal:
B: slimfast shake
L: steak soft taco, meximelt, chicken soft taco (after not really eating breakfast I totally caved...)
D: 2 turkey hotdogs w/ 1 slice whole wheat bread
S: rice jello *new creme brulee flavor--ok but not as good as I'd hoped...

Pts: 26

My heart did a little pitter patter this a.m. when the scale jumped around to 164.8 and then finally rested at 165. That's ok. I'm positive it won't be long now til I see 164 again for real!  

Food Journal:
B: egg mcmuffin ww style
L: fish taco
S: choc slimfast
D: pita pizza (spinach & turkey pepperoni)
S: rice pudding cup

Pts: 25

I weighed myself this a.m. and was excited to see 165 again. I'm almost back to where I had been (164) so that is exciting ;-) 

Food Journal:
B: egg mcmuffin ww style
S: lemon bar ww
L: bk whopper jr, 3 onion rings
D: leftover 1/2 portion italian food
S: fiber one bar

Pts: 28

Not the best of days. I had met up with a mom friend at the bk playground and had eaten a small burger (no cheese). Good in some ways I suppose, but not the best. She also had an apple pie she was tempting me with and I only ate 3 of the offered onion rings (one of my all time favs).

New treat: WW lemon cake bars. Only 1 point and pretty yummy. There are only 6 or so in the box, so even if you cave and eat the whole thing that's still only 6 pts...  

Weight this a.m. was 166 even. Getting there slowly...

Food Journal:
B: 1 slice french toast w/ low sugar syrup
L: 1 steak soft taco, 1 beef meximelt, 1 chicken soft taco (I know...)
S: fiber one bar
D: 1/2 grilled chz sandwich w/ 1 choc pudding cup

Pts: 32


You know? I should just have this page branded to my forehead and then I would be set! 
http://www.dwlz.com/Restaurants/tacobell.html 


Weight from this a.m. 166.6 lbs

Food Journal:
B: 2 cinnamon rolls (husband's fault)
L: 2 chicken soft tacos (TB)
D: 1 slice pepperoni pizza, 1 italian beef sandwich, 1 spare rib (soooo very bad tonight...)

Pts: way too many. too depressing to count.

I will do better tomorrow now that I have things int he cupboard I can eat. I went to costco and bought fiber one bars, boca burgers, and slimfast shakes. I also need to stop by the store and get a few other things to help with the healthy eating, but at least I have a few things to tide me over until then. Today was rough! Ugh... 

This is the post where I confess all. I fell of the wagon and bumped my ass. Hard. Ergh. I am so annoyed with myself.

Although there were brief moments of goodness during my vacation, overall I would say that I was pretty bad. Moderation flew out the window and I pretty much ate however much I wanted to eat and whenever I wanted it. I will say one thing though--I felt more in touch with my body and with my need for food. I didn't ever eat so much that I felt uncomfortable and sick to my stomach. I was able to stop before reaching that point--so maybe that is the bright light at the end of the tunnel???

Today wasn't so very good either. It did start out well with a standard oatmeal breakfast. Lunch was 2 turkey hot dogs with no bun. Dinner--? Hubby came home with his buddies after a Key West charter fishing trip. They brought I don't know how many lbs of fish and demanded a fish fry with all the trimmings. Fried fish (canola oil), hush puppies, corn on the cob, red potatoes with butter, and then brownies for dessert. That husband will be the death of my diet I swear! Ergh...What could I do? We had company and they all wanted only one thing...

Tomorrow I will begin my process again.

This a.m. I weighed 167 lbs. So I am up 3 lbs from my former 164 lbs prior to said vacay. So depressing. And I also feel annoyed with myself  because all of that bad eating was not worth it. Not at all. And I didn't even really enjoy it because I kept thinking to myself how much it was going to suck having to lose those lbs all over again.